Bipolar Bride...

For about the past week, every night I have had a nightmare. I toss and turn and wake up exhausted wondering why. Last night while watching tv and chatting about the wedding, I told Jarrett i thought it was so funny that i was stressing so much, but all my nightmares relate to the tasks, nothing to do with us. None of my nightmares have anything to do with him...or even getting married--just the little details.

Yknow when you first meet a guy and you get a lump in your throat or butterflies when you see them? You can't wait to talk to them, and don't want to call too much etc? Well, after 6 1/2 years, I don't get that feeling every time I see him. Not because I love him any less, but it's different. So as I am driving to work on Friday and thinking about our upcoming wedding i realized i had a lump in my throat at the prospect of marrying JJB. I was so excited I couldn't stand it.

So in 2 days, I've gone from crazy bridezilla to sappy excitied bride. BIPOLAR much?!

Bridezilla

i know, it's been a while. im starting to freak out. i'm turning into bridezilla. I found this from another blogger, http://sugarbabylon.wordpress.com/, and just loved it.





Oh poor Mom and Jarrett.

I've been talking to a lot of people...and when they say "when is the wedding, again?" and I reply with 2.5 weeks... their reaction is the same. OH MY.

YES, more like HOLY shit.

we have been finishing our "homework" for the minister, which is answering q's like:

• What are some of the reasons that you fell in love with Brad Pitt (aka your fiancé)? Please give examples, be thoughtful & specific.
• What attracts you to your mate? What do you find physically attractive in him?
• How did you meet? / How & when did you go from being “friends” to being a “couple” (aka tell me about the beginnings of the relationship, how you began dating).

...to finalizing flowers, deciding who sits where, final songs, programs, menus, place cards etc. Wow is this intense. I cannot wait until August 12th, when we'll be beerbbqing with our friends and RELAXING. It's pretty much been a year since I've done that for more than 2-3 days.

OH! and the nightmares... i'd hoped they wouldn't get bad. But I'm having them, every single night. Last night my mom forgot the jewelery, my hair and makeup people were drinking at the cocktail hour (which happened to be BEFORE the ceremony) and then I had a complete meltdown because we started the wedding 1.5 hours late. I think i'm losing it.

drum roll please.

the seating chart is done!!!!! we figured out how to fit all the people at the wedding... how to make sure people that hate each other aren't together, people that do know each other are seperate... and all that good stuff.

*Editorial Note: since Jarrett does in fact read my blog, he asked who said excel was the best way to do this? (Obviously because I argued that it was not). However, as it turns out...we used it, I gave in and it wasn't so bad.

I can't tell you how relieved I am this is done. Now we need to pick where the tables are (for example, keep the older people AWAY from the DJ, friends closer to the bar!) LOL...

Bachelorette Party

Things i'm thinking about this week as I countdown to my bachelorette party!

I think I'm an artist

Since I've been super late posting an invitation picture...

ONE MONTH!!!

holy moly batman. wasn't it just yesterday we got engaged? If fact it was one year and 2 days ago that jarrett proposed to me at La Campania.

well as of today, we are one month away (31 days) from the day i have been waiting for since i realized that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. (i think i realized slightly before he did, ha!) the countdown has begun.

We have a lot to do, little details to finalize...but both of us are over the moon. I find myself trying on my wedding band at least once a week and daydreaming at work about the day. I'm totally obsessed with people's pictures of other people's weddings and any good facebook wedding stalking i find ;-)

thank you all for putting up me with in advance. I cannot wait for August 16!!!!!!!!

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover..

I hate the world today

You're so good to me, I know

But I cant change

Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe I'm an angel underneath

Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried

You must have been relieved to see the softer side

I can understand how youd be so confused

I dont envy you

Im a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

So the stress of the one month mark (Thursday!) is getting to me. If one more person asks me if I'm ready, I might just scream. HAHA, i just feel like I can't keep up with all the things left to do. I started making checklists. "Wedding Day Items", "Rehearsal Checklist", "Itinerary Wedding Day"...you get the point. I think I'm narotic. I think I'm insane. I think Jarrett is going to kill me.

We are recognized by the state of Massachusetts...

A marriage licence (spelled license in American English) is a document issued, either by a church or state authority, authorizing a couple to marry. The procedure for obtaining a licence varies between countries and has changed over time. Marriage licences began to be issued in the Middle Ages, to permit a marriage which would otherwise be illegal (for instance, if the necessary period of notice for the marriage had not been given).

This morning Jarrett and I went to fill out paperwork for our marriage license aka our intent to marry! On Thursday, it will be official... until the ceremony. I was expecting something eventful, this is a big deal! But nope, we filled out our information...she checked our id's...we signed the paperwork and paid $15. (BTW, it's $30 in Cambridge and $50 in Boston!!!!) That was it. Then we were on our way...the day goes on!

Family Lunch

A lot of Jarrett's family lives out of state. We don't get to see them often, and some of them I've never met. I also have a few relatives traveling to Boston and Jarrett hasn't met them. (In 6 years, it does seem odd, right?) It makes me all the more excited to finally see them all, and in one place!

That being said, we decided to do a family lunch Saturday before the wedding. Nothing fancy, but just an excuse for us to spend time with our families that we probably won't get to do during the wedding.

We picked the Stoneforge Restaurant in Plymouth. It's right on the water and we’ve picked a menu that has a variety of items and seafood to truly experience New England while people are here (lobster roll etc).

The more I think about the wedding, the more I realize we will be doing a LOT of eating ;-)

The end of the world as we know it...

I'm supposed to go to the red sox game tonight. Most likely that will not happen. Why? (see below)

So after 28 days of rain in the month of June, I thought... surely July will be better. And today when it rained again, I thought surely it can't rain in July and August right? I needed some cheering up...something to look forward to for our wedding. And then it happened. I went to the Farmer's Almanac. BAD, TERRIBLE, NO GOOD ROTTEN IDEA.

July 2009 1st-3rd Showers and rain from New England south, then clearing. 4th-7th Fair and generally pleasant. 8th-11th Showers and thunderstorms rapidly shift east into New England by the 11th. 12th-15th Showery weather persists. 16th-19th Unsettled conditions. 20th-23rd A few local thunderstorms for New England. 24th-27th Clear and hot, then local thunderstorms for New England. 28th-31st Showers and thunderstorms.
August 2009 1st-3rd Heavy rainfall. 4th-7th Partial clearing and cooler. 8th-11th Hazy and muggier. 12th-15th Increasingly cloudy skies. 16th-19th Rain moves in from west; possibly heavy at times. Potential hurricane threat along the coast. 20th-23rd A brief respite from wet weather, then more heavy rain. 24th-27th Heavy rainfall gradually gives way to cooler and drier air. 28th-31st Renewal of rainy, thundery conditions is followed by a surge of unseasonably chilly air.

the bachelor party...

dum dum dum...!

So this weekend is the bachelor party. THE BACHELOR PARTY. the weekend that every bride dreads hearing and acknowledging. Jarrett is taking the trip to Montreal (where all of MY memories involve a lot of drinks, Peel's Pub and Winston Churchill's, St. Catherine's St, and some disgusting strip club!). I think the point is, I don't remember a lot either.

That being said, I'm not stressed about it. Nope. Jarrett and his 30 friends will be golfing and sightseeing and behaving. It's just that simple.

And I will be enjoying a weekend of beach, bowling, and sun....

Seating Chart

42 days! I think I'll have my meltdown at about 30 days haha.

So we have about 75 responses (yes) thus far, and I've started thinking about the seating chart. (sorry WE). Jarrett's idea of this is plugging names into an excel spreadsheet. I want something more visual, something I can see... (is this a men are from mars/women are from venus thing?) I wonder how other couples handled this?

Is the seating chart a nightmare for other people? It just doesn't seem like an exciting task.

At this point, I'm debating a "parents table" where Jarrett's mom and dad, my mom and dad and our grandmother's sit... (although divorced families sometimes put a wrinkle into this ;-).

Update: steak is beating chicken 41-33.

Our flower girl.

Because she is so damn cute...and this is her in the dress she will be wearing. I can't wait to see Olivia and Ben together. I picked a slightly different dress than your standard flower girl... I just thought this was so cute.